Who am I now?

Who am I?


A girl likes to pretend.
Pretend to be a strong girl, pretend she is happy always.
So, she will not get hurts.


Before this, she is a pessimistic girl, but she pretended like an optimistic girl.


She learnt nuttiness.
Now, she gets nuttiness.


But how?
She is not happy anymore.


Contradiction?


She tried to change herself, to feel the happiness from her heart.
Yes, sometimes she does.
But often, she doesn't.


She is going to crazy.


She laughs, while she is crying.
She cries too, while she is laughing.
So, no one will know what she feels actually.


Yes, she is escaping.
Escape from the life which makes her feels tired and regret.


Who am I?
I know it now.
Just a name, without soul, called Jasslyn Ong.