今天情

有些事实知道了会很难受。

原来，今天你来过。

我知道，你逃避我。

谢谢你，我们不曾见面过。

我不明白，你害怕什么？

你害怕斩不断我么之间的缘吗？

还是你就真的那么地讨厌我、不想见到我？

我们之间没什么了不是吗？

是不是连朋友也没得做了？

我会觉得可惜吗？

你真的，就是个大笨蛋！

今朝有酒今朝醉吧。

真心谢谢 Yee Wen 美女今天的邀请，真的很开心见到大家，还聊了许多，疯狂了许久。

明天中学运动会，会到场支持老弟的。

无论结果如何，老弟，加油！

还有， #RJVN , #Showdown2013, all the best!

团体压力

最近周围的朋友都很压力，大家都为了各自的学业功课忙得不可开交，还有很多出乎我意料的人，也哭了。

这一次，我竟然没有哭，我告诉自己不准哭，还真的给我办到了。

一直以来分组作业，我都是给别人压力、给别人严肃的印象。
但实际上，我也不是没有压力。

小组作业还容易控制场面，可是来到大组作业，你必须要加倍包容、加倍宽容、加倍谅解、加倍合作。
人数多了，并不代表付出可以少了。
反之，大家更应该谨慎。
人多，意见多，错误多，争吵多。
可是别忘了，大家聚集在一起的长处，也多了。

我真的不喜欢，明明说好讨论作业，可是却可以长篇大论题外话兼没有重点，更主要是浪费时间。
所以，我总是扮演绷着张黑脸的角色，把每一位成员拉回轨道。
我想这种处事作风在某些人眼里是缺点。
那些讨厌我这个作风的人，我不会怪你，因为我相信，你会是其中“出轨的人”。
我不是要自卖自夸，如果真的没有我跳出来带领大家，请问下是不是每一次开会都变成神游？
没有结果的结果，功课，是你给我分数吗？

我既要照顾每个人的感受，又要兼顾我的课业部分。
一句不会，我扛。
话说重了，我来道歉。
我不需要面子，在真正的朋友面前，面子抵得了真诚吗？
帮忙完毕，不声不响没消没息了。
功课，几个人做；
分数，全部人拿。
公平？

有些人真的很没资格喊压力。
真的，每天开开心心，外出，跟朋友车大炮抬杠，功课不闻不问。
压力？连个压力的症状你都没有。
我否认你，算我无知，算我误解吧。
我只是，无解。

或许吧，从一开始就不该太好心肠。
现在宠坏了同学，自作自受。
当你不愿再给予协助的时候，人家就会说“你变了”。
然后一张嘴，却可以十传百，百传千。
臭名，就此远扬。

我曾想过拨通电话回家跟家里人聊聊天，可是不想让家人担心，又害怕不争气的泪水在听见家人的声音后会落下，于是便把事情写在这里。
我没有哭。
我长大了。
我有压力，可是我会克制自己，这是一种学习过程。
我也深信，这并不是人生最压力、最绝望的时候。
我还笑了。
笑世间，可笑之人。

后记：
跳舞、运动是解压的最佳方式。
今天还真的实践了去健身房的承诺了。
找个朋友倾诉也是不错的选择。
不想讲话，像我一样打在部落格，心理也会舒服许多。
给无知的学弟妹们，别再为赋新词强说愁。
什么拼人气的，别人看到的你，也只不过是表面光彩。
还有，是我的朋友都知道，我就是这么直接的一个人。
直接不是想要伤害你，而是不想隐瞒你、模糊你。
阿谀奉承的话我不会说，我只会告诉你事实。
希望我们的友谊不会因此而出现状况。
未来，相处愉快吧，一起加油！ :)

Dance Life

I started to fall for dance since I was small. (Actually I can't really remember when is it. xD)

I just remember that my passion on dance, especially on break dance, started to grow when I was still a high school student. I did not dance, I just dreamed, without taking any action to prove that I actually love to dance.

The first experience of my dance life is between the last two years of my high school life. We just learnt some dances for performance.
And now when I rewind the past, I feel I am really a stupid ass hole because I was trying to commit suicide when I couldn't dance well. How silly was I?

But now, I am a smart girl.
I gained a lot from the dancers.
I found the ways to make dance useful.
I dance whenever I feel to.
I practice dance by myself.

Seriously I feel grateful to my classmates who asked me to dance for their video shooting.
That was the time when I made my dream a truth.
The minute when my family and friends watched the completed dance video, we laughed together so loudly!
Moreover, I was so surprising when my lecturer/ tutor showed the dance video during the lecture class, in the big lecture hall.
Oh my ! I was on screen! I really didn't expect that!
Teacher some more added on that she was surprised by me, and she said that that is what she has to do, shows her students' talents.
And yet, thanks to everyone who gave me courage and comments too.
Appreciate it much.

I know my family worries about me, especially my mummy and my twin brothers.
My second sister and I are having the same problem, that is our back bones injured since we were young kids.
But my sister's situation is worse than mine but previously, she learnt about break dance too.
The first time my mum sees me do the break dance is from the video shooting that I mentioned just now.
She knows she probably can't stop me from doing break dance, thus she just keeps asks and reminds me to be careful when dance it.
While talking about my brothers, sometimes they will yell at me when I dance, but actually I know in the inner layer of their hearts, they will support me no matter how. They even helped me when I failed.
So, I have promised to them and myself, I will take good care of myself, my health, the only priceless wealth!
I am not a kid a child any more!

Well, I never feel that is enough for my dance life.
I hope I am determine enough to continue my dance life.
Never stop from improving my dance skill.
Dope Jasslyn, keep calm, and dance!
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