They define me.

I used to ask people:
What is my first impression to you?

Who am I to you?

What do you think about me?

What kind of person am I?

What comes first to your mind when my name appears?

How will you describe me?

Just for this time, I define myself, with fully confidence!

I don't know.
I mentioned before that this semester we are having the large project for our Radio and DJ final assignment. We are divided into two big groups and there are 11 people in each group.

So yea, problems always start when there is communication. I mean different communication ways always cause problem.

What to say hmmm...

Honestly say, I used to describe the group members as weird type, just after I got along with them.

I hate faker! Thus I don't fake in front of people!

When I angry, I angry, I show people the what the fuck face!

When I happy, I happy, friends with everyone, as simple as ABC!

I was annoyed by the describing of "faker".

I accept all the comments.

For the good one, I will say I really have the ability to do everything.

I am not a leader, I just trained to be a leader since I was still a primary school student.

I was the assistant of head of prefect.

And during my secondary school life, I was the class monitor for all the five years.

I am proud to say that even the discipline teacher begged me to be the prefect and she wanted me to be the head of prefect.

I rejected it.

If I am really a vanity person, I would probably accept the position and tell everyone about it but I didn't.

I can't accept people say I am faker!
I hate it and definitely I will fight back 99!
Just because I said something, then I am hated.
Just because I did something, then I am considered as kepo busy body.
Why don't you talk about those who didn't do their responsibilities?!

I am too real, until you say I am fake.

I am too kind, until you say I am too free to be a busy body to take over and control everything.

I am too tolerate, until you can take advantage then stab my back.

I am too innocent, until I kept annoyed by your and others' words.

I am who I am.

I shouldn't have cared much any more.
I can't control anyone.
Just bare in mind, I don't need you to appreciate or thank me, I simply want to benefit you guys, that will be my pleasure to help you guys, remember what teamwork is.

I want our friendships, the real and true friendships.
I prefer you to scold me in front of everyone, rather than talk cock and crap behind me!
I will admit my fault if that's really my fault.
And all I want to say is I am not afraid to talk about you guys that means I am dare to face you all.
I dislike stab back type!

And lastly I want to thanks everyone, you guys define who am I, and lead me to find and define who am I.

Now I love and treasure myself more.

I am proud to be who I am.

I am Jasslyn Ong, the one and only one. :)

Elecoldxhot Night

颠了！疯了！开心到傻了！哈哈！

TAR UC Orientation Odyssey Night (OO Night)，每次人家问我要不要去，我都会满嘴粗口坚决地拒绝。
然而，就在今天，我却很烦躁、很烦恼，我 要 去 ！
昨天从朋友口中得知 Elecoldxhot 即将出席并参与演出，鸡蛋糕我一收到消息就一直在骂 committee 为什么没有宣传。我敢保证，如果他们公开并宣传，今晚肯定大爆满！岂有此理还要我自己去 Elecoldxhot Facebook Official Page 检查才行。

整件事的经过就好像一场梦，我真的难以想象今晚有多美好。

碎碎念了一整天，朋友都快被我烦晕了。
原本以为没有票无法出席了，怎知道就在朋友们要离我而去之际，收到通知有人去不了。
结果？本人就算当了代替品也很开心。
可是烦恼又来了，本小姐没有合适的服装。
幸运的是，不到30秒就借到一件黑色的连身裙，穿上了之后大家都说很好看，呵呵。
（人美穿什么都美的啦！）
就这样，不到5分钟的准备过程，我就这样不可思议地出现在 OO Night 会场。

然后看了我的偶像 Elecoldxhot 的演出，场面真的是 high 到爆的！
不夸张！真的一点也不夸张！
原本不认识 Elecoldxhot 的朋友，在观看演出之后简直着迷得神魂颠倒！
接着是玩游戏时间，有 Elecoldxhot 和 Ryan Foo Joe 发问问题。
其实真的没有想过要参加游戏，即便再怎么疯狂。
但是朋友们比我还紧张，死命地叫我出去，然后潜意识里的我实际上是多么地想接近他们，于是还是自动自发地走上台了。
其实，Dennis Yin 也有叫我上台哦！哈哈！
然后就成功回答了问题，就可以得到礼篮。
怎知道 Popping Joe 和 Joe Ang 扛着 Ben Liew 当礼物送给我。
其实我很想告诉他们，我真的很想接这份礼物！可以的话我真的不要礼篮，哈哈哈！
可是玩笑后，我还是从偶像手中接过礼篮，嘻嘻。

游戏环节结束后，原以为偶像已经离场了，却偶然发现其实他们还没离开。
于是便和朋友借上厕所的理由（其实真的有上厕所）去找偶像拍照。
可惜的是，当中的一些成员已离开了。
可是没关系，有总比没有来得好。

我真的很开心！
终于见到所有偶像，而且还是近距离接触！
很陶醉、也很沉醉！
到现在仍无法平复心情地一直在笑，哈哈！
连朋友都有点忍无可忍的感觉。
总而言之今天真的是一个很美好的夜晚。
26/6/2013，值得纪念的夜晚。
晚安。
:D

[Nobody can stop me from loving and supporting them! Yea I love them damn much! Had an awesome and enjoyable night with #Elecoldxhot #ECX ! :DDDDDDDDDD]

Sick nal

Quite suffering these days! 

Here we come few assignment deadlines.

It is still ok at first.

What makes the situation worse is the signal of sickness! Damn the stupid haze!

Akh!
Actually I already felt not well since last week.

I was having sore throat and lost my voice because I shouted too much and too loud during my secondary school Sport Day.

And then, too many midnight works!
I stay up the nights for these few weeks.

Just almost recover from the little "not-well" feeling, but the stupid haze came.

The situation is getting more serious and has successfully effects me.

I get tired, I suffer in breathing, I feel dizzy, I cannot go out and have my proper meals!

Hell yea!
Brainless people did extra-stupid stuffs!

Why hurt and damage our one and the only one mother nature?

And seriously hurt the people around the world!

Now I receive the sick nal for me!

Damn you!

So ya all my friends, remember take care of yourselves!
Drink more water, wear mask and please avoid from outdoor activity ya!

Take good care of your health too!

Lesson learnt: Never ever burn the forest or rubbish or whatever. I mean, never ever damage the earth! If not, you will get cursed, by me.

Lastly, stay strong people, together with Jasslyn Ong here!

热血沸腾

最能够让我热血沸腾的事物，我想非舞蹈莫属。

刚才看了 8TV Showdown 2013 All Star Category Semi-Finals，整个原本被烟霾熏昏了的心，顿时重新燃烧一把热火。

我的偶像 Elecoldxhot 真的很棒。可或许他们的舞技早已达到某种荣誉的成就，观众及评审开始要求更多，期望也更高，而当他们满足不了这种需求时，就开始被认为一般般，其实这点对我这个舞迷来说难免会为偶像的心理不平衡。如果非要下个结论，我觉得这一次的比赛，Elecolxhot 不再是跟谁比赛，而是跟自己比赛。看了偶像们的状态，了解对他们而言或许这是舞团的最低潮，可是我会永远支持他们！希望他们对舞蹈的热忱可以再次爆发，加油！

而我的朋友 Rejuvenate 简直让我大吃不止一惊，他们的舞技已经超乎我所想象的。这也难怪，我们分开了约半年之久，我怎么可能知道些什么呢？每一次在舞台上的演出都带给我惊喜，真的，从重新组合开始，这两年的路途中你们进步了真的很多，进步速度也很神速。看见你们的成长与进步，真的感到无比开心和光荣。我也会永远支持你们，加油！This This This This This is Rejuvenate!
[Guys, from the 2 years of journey since it reformed, you guys really surprise me and improve a lot with a fast speed! Support! Keep it up!]

感谢启发我跳舞的人，让我勇敢实现我的梦。

还记得上个星期 English for IELTS Speaking Test, 很幸运的我的讲题竟然是舞蹈，更出乎意料的是结束考试前，老师还要求我现场示范，当然我也造做了。

我相信生活中总有一间那么让人热血沸腾的事，虽然它不一定是我们会做的事。

尽管我多么热爱写作，

尽管我多么喜欢阅读，

尽管我多么不译跳舞，

但是舞蹈，却能让我的心起死回生。

我开始追逐起我的舞蹈梦，至少，一生，一次。

今天情

有些事实知道了会很难受。

原来，今天你来过。

我知道，你逃避我。

谢谢你，我们不曾见面过。

我不明白，你害怕什么？

你害怕斩不断我么之间的缘吗？

还是你就真的那么地讨厌我、不想见到我？

我们之间没什么了不是吗？

是不是连朋友也没得做了？

我会觉得可惜吗？

你真的，就是个大笨蛋！

今朝有酒今朝醉吧。

真心谢谢 Yee Wen 美女今天的邀请，真的很开心见到大家，还聊了许多，疯狂了许久。

明天中学运动会，会到场支持老弟的。

无论结果如何，老弟，加油！

还有， #RJVN , #Showdown2013, all the best!

团体压力

最近周围的朋友都很压力，大家都为了各自的学业功课忙得不可开交，还有很多出乎我意料的人，也哭了。

这一次，我竟然没有哭，我告诉自己不准哭，还真的给我办到了。

一直以来分组作业，我都是给别人压力、给别人严肃的印象。
但实际上，我也不是没有压力。

小组作业还容易控制场面，可是来到大组作业，你必须要加倍包容、加倍宽容、加倍谅解、加倍合作。
人数多了，并不代表付出可以少了。
反之，大家更应该谨慎。
人多，意见多，错误多，争吵多。
可是别忘了，大家聚集在一起的长处，也多了。

我真的不喜欢，明明说好讨论作业，可是却可以长篇大论题外话兼没有重点，更主要是浪费时间。
所以，我总是扮演绷着张黑脸的角色，把每一位成员拉回轨道。
我想这种处事作风在某些人眼里是缺点。
那些讨厌我这个作风的人，我不会怪你，因为我相信，你会是其中“出轨的人”。
我不是要自卖自夸，如果真的没有我跳出来带领大家，请问下是不是每一次开会都变成神游？
没有结果的结果，功课，是你给我分数吗？

我既要照顾每个人的感受，又要兼顾我的课业部分。
一句不会，我扛。
话说重了，我来道歉。
我不需要面子，在真正的朋友面前，面子抵得了真诚吗？
帮忙完毕，不声不响没消没息了。
功课，几个人做；
分数，全部人拿。
公平？

有些人真的很没资格喊压力。
真的，每天开开心心，外出，跟朋友车大炮抬杠，功课不闻不问。
压力？连个压力的症状你都没有。
我否认你，算我无知，算我误解吧。
我只是，无解。

或许吧，从一开始就不该太好心肠。
现在宠坏了同学，自作自受。
当你不愿再给予协助的时候，人家就会说“你变了”。
然后一张嘴，却可以十传百，百传千。
臭名，就此远扬。

我曾想过拨通电话回家跟家里人聊聊天，可是不想让家人担心，又害怕不争气的泪水在听见家人的声音后会落下，于是便把事情写在这里。
我没有哭。
我长大了。
我有压力，可是我会克制自己，这是一种学习过程。
我也深信，这并不是人生最压力、最绝望的时候。
我还笑了。
笑世间，可笑之人。

后记：
跳舞、运动是解压的最佳方式。
今天还真的实践了去健身房的承诺了。
找个朋友倾诉也是不错的选择。
不想讲话，像我一样打在部落格，心理也会舒服许多。
给无知的学弟妹们，别再为赋新词强说愁。
什么拼人气的，别人看到的你，也只不过是表面光彩。
还有，是我的朋友都知道，我就是这么直接的一个人。
直接不是想要伤害你，而是不想隐瞒你、模糊你。
阿谀奉承的话我不会说，我只会告诉你事实。
希望我们的友谊不会因此而出现状况。
未来，相处愉快吧，一起加油！ :)

Dance Life

I started to fall for dance since I was small. (Actually I can't really remember when is it. xD)

I just remember that my passion on dance, especially on break dance, started to grow when I was still a high school student. I did not dance, I just dreamed, without taking any action to prove that I actually love to dance.

The first experience of my dance life is between the last two years of my high school life. We just learnt some dances for performance.
And now when I rewind the past, I feel I am really a stupid ass hole because I was trying to commit suicide when I couldn't dance well. How silly was I?

But now, I am a smart girl.
I gained a lot from the dancers.
I found the ways to make dance useful.
I dance whenever I feel to.
I practice dance by myself.

Seriously I feel grateful to my classmates who asked me to dance for their video shooting.
That was the time when I made my dream a truth.
The minute when my family and friends watched the completed dance video, we laughed together so loudly!
Moreover, I was so surprising when my lecturer/ tutor showed the dance video during the lecture class, in the big lecture hall.
Oh my ! I was on screen! I really didn't expect that!
Teacher some more added on that she was surprised by me, and she said that that is what she has to do, shows her students' talents.
And yet, thanks to everyone who gave me courage and comments too.
Appreciate it much.

I know my family worries about me, especially my mummy and my twin brothers.
My second sister and I are having the same problem, that is our back bones injured since we were young kids.
But my sister's situation is worse than mine but previously, she learnt about break dance too.
The first time my mum sees me do the break dance is from the video shooting that I mentioned just now.
She knows she probably can't stop me from doing break dance, thus she just keeps asks and reminds me to be careful when dance it.
While talking about my brothers, sometimes they will yell at me when I dance, but actually I know in the inner layer of their hearts, they will support me no matter how. They even helped me when I failed.
So, I have promised to them and myself, I will take good care of myself, my health, the only priceless wealth!
I am not a kid a child any more!

Well, I never feel that is enough for my dance life.
I hope I am determine enough to continue my dance life.
Never stop from improving my dance skill.
Dope Jasslyn, keep calm, and dance!
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